Every day I try my best to make the world a little happier than I found it. If I can make someone smile, I feel like I have done something OK.
Valentine's Day is rough for a lot of people. Actually, so are Thanksgiving and Christmas. I try especially hard from November through February to give that random moment of laughter, joy, or happiness. I have done this for years. In high school I used to keep carnations in my locker to hand out to people if they looked sad.
I screw up a lot, though. Sometimes people misread my intentions. Sometimes I make things worse. Sometimes I just plain do the wrong thing.
I did that this time. With more than one person. I saw friends who were stressed for one reason or another and I decided to try to change that. But I did the wrong things and now several people I care about are frustrated with me.
It is possible that I might not have done these things if I had not been sleep deprived. I do not know. I just know that right now, I am feeling very stupid and I wish that I had done things differently.
Between that and bad news on the health front from both my sister and my grandmother, it has been a challenging week for my good spirits.
I hope that I can regain them. I do not like being down.
